Accompanada

I decided to type out a blog today since I'm too lazy to edit convert upload and wait for processing, and I also look like a hot curly mess. I can see the light outside and I strangely cannot settle into my bed. I know that if I close my eyes and get underneath my covers I WILL fall asleep, but my mind seems to be going a million miles a minute.

I sign into my myspace like once a day since nothing interesting ever happens on there and I don't internet stalk anybody *cough* like Shani *cough* hahaha But seriously I signed in and my cousin's status comes up as "didn't know it was so hard to get preggo" but of course she wrote it in "ghetto" and I can't possibly recreate that. Whoa! Shes like a week younger than me and she's already wanting to start a family. Really? DO you have no other goals in life? I mean yes children are wonderful, but at the right time. I guess...thats it for her. She's at her last step - children. She's never going to college and all she does is work a manual labor job. Idk I get really disappointed with people sometimes. I guess everybody's trying to catch up to her sister Blanca who's expecting a baby boy. Their other sister just got "accompanada" which basically means she moved in with her bf - which in hispanic talk means common law marriage, basically.

I really like Matthew. haha even if he's a nerd and he rides around in his geek mobile. But then again thats what I said about Alejandro, and then I lost interest. SEEEEEE thats what I'm talking about - I like somebody and then I just lose all types of interest. Quickly!!!! I wish I cared. hahaha. I like that he stands on his own two feet, has his own place, own car and doesnt suck on his parents' teet for support. I think thats a good quality in a man. To be self sufficient you have to be mature and grounded.

I had a dream about him yesterday. Another individual was in my dream, and he was going through my things and found a picture of Matt. He said, "Why didnt you tell me he was white?" blah blah blah I know that its not a big deal that Matthew is white...it ISNT, but deep down inside it is. I think - whites as individuals can be ok...lol. but idk as a whole, I still have a big distrust towards them.

Cindy, can you sound any more racist?

why yes, yes I can.

hahaha