Wishing it was him

For some reason when I took a shower I was having this feeling that I was going to get a call...and exactly as i thought, when I came back into my room I had missed a call...I didnt recognize the number...i was kind of excited, thinking it was Aaron, but I was crushed when JR answered. He was all bitching at me because I hadn't answered his phone calls in the summer. Haha I don't want to pursue anything with him beyond friendship, but he wants to. I'm not attracted to him, personality-wise. He's a nice guy, but he's NOT what I want and I don't want to waste his time and my time...but i can't tell him straight out. I'm kinda like...aww poor guy, but I know what is right is that I should just tell him the truth. But Lately when I've told guys the truth, I've been slapped in the face (not literally). I've been told that I was a bitch by a guy twice in the matter of 2 weeks...just for being truthful...for speaking my mind. Fuck sugar coating it...

First Day

Tomorrow will be my first day of classes I'm kinda scared...its a 20 minute walk hahaha can you believe that? My first class is like the farthest building...the main one. Me and Shani walked around to see where our classes were. We saw the inside and stuff...its weird my Freshman comp classroom is VERY small, maybe for like 50 people. The other ones are HUGE though...crazy stuff...Its Bananas...hahaha Tommy Lee cracks me up. TR days are easier...my classes are right down the hall from eachother. That's great for my lazy ass...hahaha.

Over There

Why can't I just forget Aaron? Maybe because I feel like thats the only guy that will pay attention to me...I know he still loves me and misses me wherever he's at...but I need him here not over there. I have nothing else to say...

A lot to do

I woke up today cause of a call from the officer handling my case...my dad still stands firm on that he doesnt want to press charges...he believes in God punishing...I dont believe that bullshit. Our stupid justice system is so stupid...I live in a state that gives death penalties left and right but wont punish two 16 year olds for stealing a girls car. All I have left is my little yellow bunny with praying hands...that always made me miss Esteban.

Sometimes I wish i hadnt broken all my connections...Chad gosh that man loved me so much and he would walk on water for me if he had to...he would have taken the law into his own hands...I'm just feeling violent right now...

I received my parking permit...ehhh I felt weird...now i have to go to the trouble in returning it.

I went to the movies with Ana and Vanessa and Peter, they didnt get there on time so I went to Soundwaves accross the street and I gotthe new Staind CD hehehehe...it was a sign that i should get it hahaha. i don't know. I just felt like it. 15 bucks, maybe I should have bought it elsewhere. I'm still waiting for the Nip/Tuck DVD it should be out in like 10-12 days. I have to watch it before the 3rd season starts in September. But anyway we watched Four Brothers...I liked it it. Lots of guns lots of violence...so great...i cried *tear* it was sad in some parts. it was fun; Magic Johnson STINKS. its cheaper though so yeah...

Earlier in the day i went to have lunch/dinner/breakfast with mario and mayra...hahahaha at Jack in The Box. i kinda felt like doing a sit down place, but we were pressed for time. The burger was DRY...but we still ate it, but just time lol.

Tomorrow I have to go to Best Buy to see if I can fix my PC and to buy a new printer, I'm going to go get a haircut, call best buy to send my back ordered cam to UTSA, i'm calling UTSA fiscal servies to see how I can take off my holds, Calling UTSA FinAid to see how that is going, calling Reagan...ughhh I asked them to send a final trascript...and did they? NOOO!!! stupid asses!