Wishing it was him

For some reason when I took a shower I was having this feeling that I was going to get a call...and exactly as i thought, when I came back into my room I had missed a call...I didnt recognize the number...i was kind of excited, thinking it was Aaron, but I was crushed when JR answered. He was all bitching at me because I hadn't answered his phone calls in the summer. Haha I don't want to pursue anything with him beyond friendship, but he wants to. I'm not attracted to him, personality-wise. He's a nice guy, but he's NOT what I want and I don't want to waste his time and my time...but i can't tell him straight out. I'm kinda like...aww poor guy, but I know what is right is that I should just tell him the truth. But Lately when I've told guys the truth, I've been slapped in the face (not literally). I've been told that I was a bitch by a guy twice in the matter of 2 weeks...just for being truthful...for speaking my mind. Fuck sugar coating it...