I havent posted in the past few days...nothing has really happened, but I'll start with Today
I was talking to John and he wanted to see me on Friday...I said no because he would only want to fuck...and I dont feel like it really...uhhh I wont touch that subject too closely. So he got PISSED he said oh go have fun with your new guy blah blah. and I was like huh? and he was like you rarely want to see me, you only see me when you say so...(recently Its been that way and I've rejected every attempt that he's done in order to see me) and it not as if I wanted to cancel...its just that sometimes theres family things or other things...blah. And he said I dont want to talk to you ever again...basically in a nut shell. God...it hurt me so bad. I saw him last night...and two nights before that. gosh...I was pissed cause he was pissed and then I made it worse...AHHHH!!! he sucks ass!!!
On another note...I saw Raul and Jairo...awww it felt SOOOO good to see them again...They made me feel better about the whole separation of me from the clique. they said, "People come and go. You make new friends. We cant really changed what happened. We stood by them for a couple of months after you left, but then we realized that you were right and that when they started hanging around other people they changed. We cant really blame ourselves for that." Ohhh I missed them so much...!!! Raul is going to UT Austin (kinda made me feel stupid) and Jairo's going to TSU.
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Thursday, August 4, 2005
Family Vacation
So last night my mom told me that she wants us to go to South Padre Island. The thing is that she wants only me, my bro, her and my dad to go. And well i'm sorry but I cant spend two three days with my dad. he annoys the fuck outta me. And if I wear the "wrong" thing he gets pissed. I just can't do that ughhh. I asked her if i could invite somebody along and my dad is firm on his ground to just make it a family activity. HA like if we've ever been a family.
Today i received my room assignments, but its weird that we are missing one person. I heard the waiting list is up to the hundreds to live there. Its weird...I'm a hispanic, Shani is Black and the other chic Jessica is white. She is super skinny. Poor girl needs to be fed hahahah. She's from Clear lake...ugh. I dont even want to think about it, but I will try my best to get to know her first and then judge. Well...i feel like I need to get to know her. She seems nice so far.
Last night I was talking to Manny. Obviously he was high, probably on bars. He was acting so retarded. he was telling me all this nonesense. he was like youre so pretty, youre beautiful, youre fine, youre gorgeous. And he wouldn't stop. And then he was like, "the other day that i saw you, i wanted to kiss your lips. I wanted to...uhhh...taste your body with my lips. I...uhh...I know that you are on a different level...and blah" I felt so embarrased...for him and for me. And i was txting john at the same time. So then I got fed up with his stupid behavior, so I hung up on him. He didnt wanna go to sleep so I just hung up. then he called back and i rejected his call. He left me a message, "hey...uhh...I miss you. alright. bye" what a dumbass. That whole situation made me feel uncomfortable.
Today i received my room assignments, but its weird that we are missing one person. I heard the waiting list is up to the hundreds to live there. Its weird...I'm a hispanic, Shani is Black and the other chic Jessica is white. She is super skinny. Poor girl needs to be fed hahahah. She's from Clear lake...ugh. I dont even want to think about it, but I will try my best to get to know her first and then judge. Well...i feel like I need to get to know her. She seems nice so far.
Last night I was talking to Manny. Obviously he was high, probably on bars. He was acting so retarded. he was telling me all this nonesense. he was like youre so pretty, youre beautiful, youre fine, youre gorgeous. And he wouldn't stop. And then he was like, "the other day that i saw you, i wanted to kiss your lips. I wanted to...uhhh...taste your body with my lips. I...uhh...I know that you are on a different level...and blah" I felt so embarrased...for him and for me. And i was txting john at the same time. So then I got fed up with his stupid behavior, so I hung up on him. He didnt wanna go to sleep so I just hung up. then he called back and i rejected his call. He left me a message, "hey...uhh...I miss you. alright. bye" what a dumbass. That whole situation made me feel uncomfortable.
Tuesday, August 2, 2005
A lot to blog
Friday
Shani arrived really late like 45 minutes late. I was kinda pissed off but I sucked it up. It was just so hot and I dont have the patience to be waiting. Then Vanessa called and wanted us to pick her up from band practice. She lived by Maritza so it was cool I guess. So we picked her up and left to BCW to meet up with Ana. There she let us know that she didnt have housing at UTSA so she wasnt going. Which kinda made me feel bad...crippled my leaving. I wanted her to go...So then Peter was being a pain in the ass so we left to go home. We arrived and Mom was chillin. We rested for a lil' while and then called up Victor to go shopping with us. We took off at around 730 went to Walmart, then Anna's, then target. I didnt see the fine cute guy there. Figures it was the afternoon shift. We bought our stuff there, then we didnt want to go home still so we went to Old Navy and then to Target...we were tired. so we went to blockbuster rented: boys dont cry, the diary of mad black woman, virgin suicides & cursed. we watched them the whole night...
Saturday
we talked about 3 hours about stuff you know? and then my uncle got there and he was pissed off. Victor had taken the car keys and my uncle needed to go to work. I took him back home and then I returned and we wantched the ending of Virgin Suicides & Cursed. Ughhh those movies were SOOO boring, pointless and stupid. then we drank coffee to try to stay awake. it was hard. I took a shower and dropped off Victor. and me and Shani waited for my mom to get there. She got there quick and then we were off to Claire's. We waited FOREVER, but there was only one person there so I had to understand you know? So she got her cartilage (SP?) pierced. we broswed around...but then got tired rather quickly. So we had only spend ONE hour there. hahaha we got home and crashed until 530. Then I didnt wanna get up...hahaha but got up and drove to Hard Rock. We got there and Mario hadnt gotten ready yet. So we waited...and while we waited Esteban called me. i was like huh? wow. hahaha I told him about Aaron, and he opened up about his flavor of the season as I put it. It kinda hurt me. And it kinda made me wanna give him a visit and smack the hell outta him. I cant slap sense into that poor man...boy whatever!! hahahah. Then we sat down with Antonio and AB and some girl...as soon as Mario got there they left to Celebration Station. I guess Antonio thought that Rebecca was coming along. Ughh yeah history...we should leave that behind
Chicken called and we ended going to the club with him which was fun i suppose...it wasnt as fun as it was the last time. we met a couple of people. they were all friendly hahahah. anyway then we went to Ihop and I found out that Kiki is going out with HOOOOTTTT guy David. Damn her and her nice and pretty self!!! hahahah Its alright I didnt really expect to see them again. But whatever. Chicken was drunk off his ass and he didnt even know who he was talking to. I was just there on the sidelines...since me and Kiki stopped being friends a LONG time ago. I looked and felt blowed... hahaha we sat far away from them though, in the smoking section. When we were coming out of iHop these guys were hollarin' at Shani it was fuckin funny. hahahaha she got skurred. and they got out at the same time too which was weird. I just got in the car as fast as I could. I didnt want part of anything. Then when we were driving home manny called. it was like 430 that dumbass. He was trying to take advantage of the situation cause I wasnt right. Dumbass!!!
Shani arrived really late like 45 minutes late. I was kinda pissed off but I sucked it up. It was just so hot and I dont have the patience to be waiting. Then Vanessa called and wanted us to pick her up from band practice. She lived by Maritza so it was cool I guess. So we picked her up and left to BCW to meet up with Ana. There she let us know that she didnt have housing at UTSA so she wasnt going. Which kinda made me feel bad...crippled my leaving. I wanted her to go...So then Peter was being a pain in the ass so we left to go home. We arrived and Mom was chillin. We rested for a lil' while and then called up Victor to go shopping with us. We took off at around 730 went to Walmart, then Anna's, then target. I didnt see the fine cute guy there. Figures it was the afternoon shift. We bought our stuff there, then we didnt want to go home still so we went to Old Navy and then to Target...we were tired. so we went to blockbuster rented: boys dont cry, the diary of mad black woman, virgin suicides & cursed. we watched them the whole night...
Saturday
we talked about 3 hours about stuff you know? and then my uncle got there and he was pissed off. Victor had taken the car keys and my uncle needed to go to work. I took him back home and then I returned and we wantched the ending of Virgin Suicides & Cursed. Ughhh those movies were SOOO boring, pointless and stupid. then we drank coffee to try to stay awake. it was hard. I took a shower and dropped off Victor. and me and Shani waited for my mom to get there. She got there quick and then we were off to Claire's. We waited FOREVER, but there was only one person there so I had to understand you know? So she got her cartilage (SP?) pierced. we broswed around...but then got tired rather quickly. So we had only spend ONE hour there. hahaha we got home and crashed until 530. Then I didnt wanna get up...hahaha but got up and drove to Hard Rock. We got there and Mario hadnt gotten ready yet. So we waited...and while we waited Esteban called me. i was like huh? wow. hahaha I told him about Aaron, and he opened up about his flavor of the season as I put it. It kinda hurt me. And it kinda made me wanna give him a visit and smack the hell outta him. I cant slap sense into that poor man...boy whatever!! hahahah. Then we sat down with Antonio and AB and some girl...as soon as Mario got there they left to Celebration Station. I guess Antonio thought that Rebecca was coming along. Ughh yeah history...we should leave that behind
Chicken called and we ended going to the club with him which was fun i suppose...it wasnt as fun as it was the last time. we met a couple of people. they were all friendly hahahah. anyway then we went to Ihop and I found out that Kiki is going out with HOOOOTTTT guy David. Damn her and her nice and pretty self!!! hahahah Its alright I didnt really expect to see them again. But whatever. Chicken was drunk off his ass and he didnt even know who he was talking to. I was just there on the sidelines...since me and Kiki stopped being friends a LONG time ago. I looked and felt blowed... hahaha we sat far away from them though, in the smoking section. When we were coming out of iHop these guys were hollarin' at Shani it was fuckin funny. hahahaha she got skurred. and they got out at the same time too which was weird. I just got in the car as fast as I could. I didnt want part of anything. Then when we were driving home manny called. it was like 430 that dumbass. He was trying to take advantage of the situation cause I wasnt right. Dumbass!!!
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Fucked up
So I fucked things up with John...ughhh why did he have to read my other blog which states everything I do with different guys on random days of rebellion against my parents during the wee hours of the morning. Why they don't catch on? I dunno...I mean I sleep a LOT during the day...c'mon??? Ughhh I dunno what I should do about the John situation, though I don't use his real name on the other blog he caught on...ughhh I'm a dummy.
Aaron...I still miss him and I wish everyday that passes tht once he comes out of basic training he will join me in San Antonio like he should. What if he's shipped off to who knows where before he even gets to come back and contact me. I miss him with such..missingness lol. I want to be in his arms again with his sweet kisses and all the rest that I am not at liberty to say...much too personal plus, y'all wont wanna hear about that stuff hahahah.
Tomorrow Shani is coming over and I'm not even much home...my room is upside down like it always is, but how do I do that so quickly I dont even know... My grandma and aunts left to SA today...they never invite me on those family trips and it kinda hurts me...though I can't go anyway but they didnt know that.
I went to the Aquarium today. No big deal...the kids had tons of fun and thats whats important. I don't really care if I didnt have as much fun as I thought I would have but i guess I have to spend as much time as I can with my lil bro before I go cause later he might just hate me with all the bad ideas my dad puts in his head about me. I'm not a bad sister...maybe I'm not the best daughter but i am a damn good sister.
Aaron...I still miss him and I wish everyday that passes tht once he comes out of basic training he will join me in San Antonio like he should. What if he's shipped off to who knows where before he even gets to come back and contact me. I miss him with such..missingness lol. I want to be in his arms again with his sweet kisses and all the rest that I am not at liberty to say...much too personal plus, y'all wont wanna hear about that stuff hahahah.
Tomorrow Shani is coming over and I'm not even much home...my room is upside down like it always is, but how do I do that so quickly I dont even know... My grandma and aunts left to SA today...they never invite me on those family trips and it kinda hurts me...though I can't go anyway but they didnt know that.
I went to the Aquarium today. No big deal...the kids had tons of fun and thats whats important. I don't really care if I didnt have as much fun as I thought I would have but i guess I have to spend as much time as I can with my lil bro before I go cause later he might just hate me with all the bad ideas my dad puts in his head about me. I'm not a bad sister...maybe I'm not the best daughter but i am a damn good sister.
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