Bastard

I havent posted in the past few days...nothing has really happened, but I'll start with Today

I was talking to John and he wanted to see me on Friday...I said no because he would only want to fuck...and I dont feel like it really...uhhh I wont touch that subject too closely. So he got PISSED he said oh go have fun with your new guy blah blah. and I was like huh? and he was like you rarely want to see me, you only see me when you say so...(recently Its been that way and I've rejected every attempt that he's done in order to see me) and it not as if I wanted to cancel...its just that sometimes theres family things or other things...blah. And he said I dont want to talk to you ever again...basically in a nut shell. God...it hurt me so bad. I saw him last night...and two nights before that. gosh...I was pissed cause he was pissed and then I made it worse...AHHHH!!! he sucks ass!!!

On another note...I saw Raul and Jairo...awww it felt SOOOO good to see them again...They made me feel better about the whole separation of me from the clique. they said, "People come and go. You make new friends. We cant really changed what happened. We stood by them for a couple of months after you left, but then we realized that you were right and that when they started hanging around other people they changed. We cant really blame ourselves for that." Ohhh I missed them so much...!!! Raul is going to UT Austin (kinda made me feel stupid) and Jairo's going to TSU.