I don't know how exactly to take all this in. And maybe I'm just complicating things because i can and I'm not living in the moment. Aaron being back...changes things. I'm no longer moping around and I'm actually showing up to class.
It's 530 in the morning...I haven't been sleeping much these past three days. I managed to clean my room tonight. and I'm 20 pages away from finishing the novel for history class that's 430 pages long. I was waiting for Aaron to call, but after 12 I gave up. Figured he was tired and fell asleep. It dawned on me that it was going to be worse in the months and year to come.
I love Aaron
Of course I love him...
I LOVE HIM
I LOVE HIM...
I LOVE HIM!
He knows me more than I know myself...
He's good to me
he's sweet to me
he's so smart, caring, amazing (in bed hahaha)
he's one of kind
If I let him go, I might never find that again
Hummm...well I solved my own problem didnt i?
No...love cant just support something by itself. [i want some breakfast hahaha I haven't eaten or slept in a LONG time]
Tom said, "its rare that true love actually happens you know. You shouldnt let go of it when its in your grasp. You should hold onto it and never let go." I'm just scared that it's going to end up like Jason's marriage. he had a tour in Iraq and when he returned he divorced his wife. His wife said she had waited too long, and the spark wasn't there anymore. I love Aaron, but am I going to still love him after he's been gone for a year and a half? I'm scared.
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