I stared blankly into the hole in the wall where the air vent was supposed to be, while warm tears rolled down my pink cheeks. I was not sobbing, just tears. The love of my life had just walked out on me. He did it so easily, that I wondered if he had this planned all along. I pondered if he had somebody else in mind even when he blatantly denied it numerous times. I did not understand it. The news was a complete surprise to me. Just last night, I was speaking to my mother about how Aaron and I were planning to adopt a child. My life had been intricately been staged and planned around him.
“How could he possibly do this to me?” I thought.
I no longer felt like screaming, and cursing the heavens for my excruciating pain. I was faced with solitude, which I had not encountered in two years. I could not grasp the concept of how he could make such a radical decision without a hint. Everything since August had been going better than I could have ever had imagined. My fairytale relationship was unfolding before my eyes. I thanked God every time I could, to remind him of how thankful I was. The point in my life could not be more perfect.
“I’m calling to say goodbye. I love you and always will.” He said.
“What the hell are you talking about, Aaron.” I responded.
“I’m just calling you because I wanted to hear your voice even if it annoys me,”
“Shut the fuck up, Aaron. Tell me what is going on!” I demanded.
He didn’t say a word.
I wrote this after this one time that Aaron had broken up with me. i think it was probably when he got married to that girl...Ha. I was such a silly girl that had no idea what LOVE was, real love. Not this verbally abusive, bi-polar nut case that Aaron was. Oh...the horrifying experience of a first love. lol
So...I will probably Vlog today. I've had to upload them to youtube to put em up. Its such an annoying process and since I am not partner I cannot upload more that 10 minutes now thats really gay.
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