Its PAST my bed time

I'm usually not up at this time when I have school the next day, but I have like this overwhelming guilt.

I was watching today's PDS and it reminded me that during 2007-2008 I lied a CRAP LOAD. It was a lie to cover up another lie to cover up another. By the end I was so inundated with lies that I could not keep track of them all. The consequences were much larger than I expected. It was a little game I played which got too many other people involved...all for the sake of getting back at Aaron. Aaron the insignificant soul-less bastard who I pay no mind to anymore.

I have grown up since then. All that crap, and people finding out does slap you back into reality. If I had to go back in time, I MOST likely would have done it again, but would have only involved two people. Aaron - naturally to just fuck him over again and again cause I'm genuinely evil like that and another just because I am selfish.

I feel like that year haunts me. As if it defined me as a whole because I made the most mistakes that year. I know that I shouldn't let that happen but it does! Now, I was definitely NOT the victim of that story, but I did fuck my OWN self over that year. I was ridiculous, and sloppy. Sometimes paranoia sets in and I feel like the people involved will tell everyone about it. I don't doubt they haven't told people about it...idk.

Going back to the growing up part - I've realized a lot of things about myself.

1. I can be a very fucked up human being, and I need to check myself, as well as my ethics, from time to time.
2. I do appreciate and love myself - flaws and all, and people should know that
3. Technology is DANGEROUS.
4. I don't need to be a vindictive bitch when people screw me over. A good "FUCK YOU!" should suffice. 
5. I make really crappy/short lists