Kitosis state

I have a HUGE headache..it started when I was walking to the dorm from the gym and Jay sent me a message bitching at me for what not. It automatically made me ANGRY, so angry that I got a headache. I took 2 tylenol rapid release pills, and it worked for a couple of hours but now it is back. Yesterday and today, I've felt so sore and tired. I'm really dissapointed that I only lost one pound in 3 days...Damn that pretzel I ate on Saturday!

I've been noticing since I've been going to the gym that the bigger people that go to the gym...which I rarely see twice, DON'T sweat...they just don't, and they leave rather quickly. I know that since I'm fat I'm supposed to sweat more, and I do, believe me, but why don't these people. It makes me really angry...lol. I dont know why that bothers me but it DOES!

The whole family is supposed to be coming down this weekend for my cousins' birthdays. My mom doesn't seem to want to come, but she probably will. This means overeating for like two days...I'll probably just eat one damn meal a day, the one everybody will eat which will be the Pizza at MrGatty's and whatever we eat on Friday with my aunt, cause she always seems to over feed us when we visit her. Mayra's coming down on Friday which means we will probably go to Antro's that night. And...ugh...probably iHop as our tradition goes. I can't afford all this extra eatings. I mean...I LOVE greasy food, hence the beautiful round figure I'm in, but I am fine with this diet. I'm not hungry at all. But ONE thing I do wrong and my kitosis state goes kabloowey. Exactly why I only lost one pound in 3 days. I'm SOOOO pissed off.

I was trying to get some studying in last night but Aaron called. He started reading this book to me...and I dunno...lol it seems kinda corny but his voice was really soothing...It got me relaxed and really, really glad. Like some adoration towards him...I dunno how to explain it. But i liked it. lol. But then he got pissy and messed it up like always. So whatever...but aww...lol for that one single moment I was TOTALLY in love with him completly.

So i was channel surfing and I stopped at Discovery health. It attracted me cause it was a overweight woman talking about how bad her periods were. And well...They were talking about my syndrome, PCOS. When she was talking bout when she was diagnosed, and how the doc told her that it may cause infertility...my heart sank, like hers did. I know that...you know people w/PCOS can have kids, but i dunno...I'm so scared. I hadn't thought of this in weeks. But now I feel the same anguish I felt when it first sunk in. PCOS is heriditary...which...makes me think that its not...cause everybody else in the fam has kids. Well except for my aunt Isabel...it is rumored that she might not be able to have kids.

I dunno...but i better take a shower before Aaron calls back.