Welcome 2006

I havent updated in a long time...so here it goes.

I was so ready to tell Esteban how I stil feel so that I can just leave it behind and look forward. On the 26th I called him and he sounded happy. He's always so cute...adorable. I wished him a belated Merry Christmas, and told him that I needed to talk to him. He was out somewhere so I told him to call me later on that night. He hasnt called to this date. It hurts to know that he doesnt care.

We went to Virginia for new years...in a car, blah! I shouldnt be complaining because it was my idea to save some cash. My dad was pissed at me cause I kept on speeding. I was just trying to get home. It was a cloudless day, those make me nauseous in cars. But anyway, I got so wasted New years eve/new years day. I went to a party with my cousin. I was left alone with the vodka and down it went. Somehow I didnt feel it strong, but it did get to me. I drank way too much. All I remember is talking to a couple of guys. This football player called John was walking me around. And then next thing I know I was on the floor in the back yard throwing up a LOT. I was like, "Why didnt you take care of me?" to my cousin, and he was so pissed off lol. He was high...yup. And then the next thing I know was that I woke up on Charlie's bed (the guy that threw the party) and I was next to this guy named Miguel...my pants were undone...ahh! lol I had passed out, blacked out...ah...crazy.

Wednesday night I went out with Mario and Chickn...we met up with Ana R. and her sis, Reina there. It was a blast lol. Me, Mario n Chickn drank a whole bottle of Bacardi Rum, and Half a bottle of Grey Goose. lol it was good! so We were tipsy at Sobe like always. I made out with an ugly guy hahahaha. Never again!!! Aaron got mad at me cause I went, ugh he's so unfair sometimes.

Last night we had an '05 reunion at Hard Rock. It was nice, but me and Janeth were like ugh I like so and so...and this person either lol. She's awesome. I got to see Vanessa and its going to be a girl!!! Her name is going to be Alysa...well not sure on the spelling but whatever. I'm going to be an aunt! YAY!

Then after hard rock, we headed over to Mario's and got fucked up with Chickn, Shani, Estephani and her bf, Jose. And then headed over to 1415. It made me kinda angry when I was there. All those fine fine men that werent the least bit interested in women. They were like thug looking guys you know? Hotties...lol some reminded me of Marcos from high school hehehe. And then I saw a couple of chics that I knew...lol. This one girl that I went to prarie view with and this other chic. The other chic, I saw her since I came in and I was like I know her, I know her. But I wasnt going to go up to her and ask y'know? So she came up to me and asked me if I went to btw and I was like YEAH! and she was like, "Nice seeing you, I hope to see you again." lol. She's pretty, but I have my babe. Eventhough he got mad at me again. He was bitching at me on my vmail cause I didnt answer the phone.

After I got dropped off at Ana's house to pick up my car, I called Esteban...it was like 3:20am lol. And he was awake, he was just done talking to one of his many gfs hahaha. And I was like its now or never. So I told him...and I dunno...he doesnt want me lol...He said that he wasnt the same guy he was two years ago...and he kept on telling me things to discourage me. he was like, "I know that you're not like Arlette, or Valerie, you deserve better. I've changed because of those two bitches." and I was like, "Just forget about it. You dont have a responsibility to me. I just wanted to get it off my chest." Which is true...in a way lol. Then I started sobering up...and well I felt like an idiot.

Then we hung up and it was like 430. And well...I felt like crap so I was crying...and I called Aaron lol...and he didnt answer. but I left him a message crying talking about....well I gave him a guilt trip. As if I were crying cause of him when in reality I was crying cause of Esteban. ehhh I guess it all worked out. Lets see if he bitches at me tonight.

Hello 2006...