I've been out of it lately...I haven't been going to class either. Well, I did go to class last week, but the week before that I skipped out. Ugh...It bit me in the ass though. I had an accounting test that I didn't even know was happening. lol I just showed up to economics and as I was walking there I looked at my phone...the screen had gone to my calendar and there it was ACC test. BLAH!!! It was a sign. lol. I winged it. I can't drop now and I refuse to take a 0.
I recently came to the news that somebody I know might be bi...I can't say that I was really surprised or not. And supposedly this person thought I knew. I didn't. lol. I wasn't really looking towards those signs...seeing that I am too involved in my own sexuality at the moment. Maybe its just confusion like Mario says. I haven't even had a crush on a new dude since foreverrrrrr, but for a girl yes, ehhh more like 2.
Jon is trying to be my friend again or something idk. We had a falling out cause...well I had to set him straight. I wasn't gonna let it continue. IDK what to do...how to react to it. I had grown so used to not hearing from him...idk. I've been alone and thats all good. Of course I miss Juan, but what can I really do? I can't cry...I have been struck by the case of the Steven : Emotional Numbness hahahahahaha. I don't give a fuck about anything...I'm just riding the waves. Watch tomorrow...I'm be all emotional about something hahaha. Tomorrow IS Juan Sunday...
I was talking to Mario about weddings...I guess since so many have passed by this spring he's like trying to plan out my wedding haha when I dont even have a fiance much less a bf or even an effing crush. And he asked me who my maid of honor would be and I was like IDK...you know it would be good if I would just marry Juan his best friend is a girl...so yall would just switch sides or something. And then I said some more reasons why marrying him would be best...blah. I need to stop thinking of him, and marriage together.
I am here in Houston for the second weekend in a row. I hate it. I hate driving all the way over here, but my dad asked me to come so I had to. We are having the whole easter thing tomorrow and we are celebrating with my dad's side of the family for once. I hadn't seen them since december. One of my cousins is 3 months pregnant. Man...I'm the ONLY one of age here in Texas from my dad's side of the fam who doesn't have a man and/or kid. lol. I don't know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. I'm gonna be an old person and not married. Thats a little sad. Fuck it. More money for me.
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