Last night I had a great time with my friend Maggie. I texted her in the morning while I was at a workshop at UH and she suggested that we hang out. Well, since I've been a social hermit, I had to take the offer. lol She took me around bars in Montrose, and she knows SOOOO many people its crazy! We had looong conversations about what is currently happening, and how everything is so fucked up.
She told me about changes in her life, and how everything is ten times better. She also told me crazy stories about each and every person she introduced me to. It was weird. I guess since she's older than me she's lived more lol.
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Now, Its Valentines day. I have to keep getting reminded because I forget. I guess this day would be more of a big deal if A - I had a BF B - I would be upset that I didn't have a BF or C - if I worked for a company that specialized in holidays. Like yesterday I walked into a bar, and there was pink red and white balloons everywhere. I was like what's going on? It took me a good 10 minutes, and after reading a promo card that I realized that they were celebrating V-day. idk...I've been so busy with School this week, and this whole year has been pretty out of whack for me since I went to India.
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This whole day I've wanted to make out with somebody. Not like...making out to lead into sex, but just make out, maybe feel somebody close to me. Its a weird feeling. I dont particularly like it since I have no one to make out with lmao.
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I was speaking to Esteban Friday night, and I HATE when we talk about "us." Its awkward, and sometimes uncomfortable. It just comes up at times, and its not like I'm gonna ignore it. the US conversations is the whole reason why I kind of just avoid him at all costs. He says, "Things would be so different if we would have ended up together" and its completely true. Maybe we would have worked out and I wouldn't have met Juan because I wouldn't have dated that idiot Aaron. (its funny how ONE choice would have changed the WHOOOLLE chain of events) Not meeting Juan would either be a good thing or a bad thing. I could have been better off. However, I could have never experienced a relationship quite like that...or who fuckin knows. Maybe the relationship with Esteban would have been that way. We get along perfectly, and he never fails to entertain me. BUTTTT as I have already experienced - A great friendship does NOT equal a great relationship (i.e. Steven)
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and lastly...I looked up Eminem after the grammys and is label had signed this guy...
I watched the vid and I was like...uhh no I can't take this guy seriously, but if I dont see him...I kinda dig it. The song's been in my head!!
She told me about changes in her life, and how everything is ten times better. She also told me crazy stories about each and every person she introduced me to. It was weird. I guess since she's older than me she's lived more lol.
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Now, Its Valentines day. I have to keep getting reminded because I forget. I guess this day would be more of a big deal if A - I had a BF B - I would be upset that I didn't have a BF or C - if I worked for a company that specialized in holidays. Like yesterday I walked into a bar, and there was pink red and white balloons everywhere. I was like what's going on? It took me a good 10 minutes, and after reading a promo card that I realized that they were celebrating V-day. idk...I've been so busy with School this week, and this whole year has been pretty out of whack for me since I went to India.
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This whole day I've wanted to make out with somebody. Not like...making out to lead into sex, but just make out, maybe feel somebody close to me. Its a weird feeling. I dont particularly like it since I have no one to make out with lmao.
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I was speaking to Esteban Friday night, and I HATE when we talk about "us." Its awkward, and sometimes uncomfortable. It just comes up at times, and its not like I'm gonna ignore it. the US conversations is the whole reason why I kind of just avoid him at all costs. He says, "Things would be so different if we would have ended up together" and its completely true. Maybe we would have worked out and I wouldn't have met Juan because I wouldn't have dated that idiot Aaron. (its funny how ONE choice would have changed the WHOOOLLE chain of events) Not meeting Juan would either be a good thing or a bad thing. I could have been better off. However, I could have never experienced a relationship quite like that...or who fuckin knows. Maybe the relationship with Esteban would have been that way. We get along perfectly, and he never fails to entertain me. BUTTTT as I have already experienced - A great friendship does NOT equal a great relationship (i.e. Steven)
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and lastly...I looked up Eminem after the grammys and is label had signed this guy...
I watched the vid and I was like...uhh no I can't take this guy seriously, but if I dont see him...I kinda dig it. The song's been in my head!!
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