So much crap

so many things happened to me in a span of 24 hours...I was chillin in SPIsland and I get a call from HPD...my car had been stolen. On the way back to Houston we get a speeding ticket...I arrive at the place where my little honda is at and its tottalled...cant even turn on. it was grafhittied (SP?) in marker inside, the whole car is scratched up, broken mirrors, all 4 sides and top of car was dented in, right door wont close...and the list goes on...Officer arrives and he tells me I have to go to court to get them to go to jail...they were 16 so they get a slap on the hand for their first offense...bullshit. and if I want to sue for damages I will have to go to civil claims court. Dad doesnt want to so nothing is going to be done...

while I was waiting for the wreker to get to the place to pick up my car and take it to the shop mom called but I didnt have signal...she left a message. As I was listening to the messages there was 2 new messages. One from my mom and the other from Aaron...why I never received that call or picked up? I dont know...it was on the 4th of August. He said he missed me...what the FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL?!? I cried in the rain for about an hour. This whole freakin day when I was in SPI all I could think about was him. Maybe it was something telling me something...I cant believe that I missed his call...I'm getting teary now...

Manny called me on the way to houston...He doesnt remember that night when he was acting a fool...I cut the conversation short...didnt really feel like talking to him for a long time.

Esteban called me too...somehow since it was my car that was stolen all I could think about was him at that time...he loves cars...but we only spoke for like 10 minutes while I told him the story of my car... then his line clicked...he put me on hold for a LONG time...dumbass. and then just to click over to tell me he would call me back. It was probably his new love interest that he was telling me about...that skank.

Then Dave called me from San Antonio...he's awesome. I might hang out with him first semester of school. he is going to be working at the mall accross from UTSA...we'll lunch date like he said hahahaha. He's dorky.

After that I got into it with John. He got mad and started saying all types of bullshit. He didnt say it straight out but I knew what he meant by the things he said. He's pissed...cause of things I cant mention, but the point of the story is that he thinks that all I'm not worthy of a relationship with somebody and that all I'm good for is a night...if you know what I mean. I was so hurt...I cried and I was embarrased because I was crying, but I cant help it that I'm so fuckin sensitive. I sobbed...and had that silent part in the middle you know what I'm talking about? I erased his number from my phone and his texts and everything...Now to erase him outta my memory.

I'm not saying that I wont speak to him again...I may be a bitch but I'm not that much of a bitch to not forgive somebody about something while they acted when they were mad....or am I? I will have to wait and see about that because I'm not sure.

Then I talked to my friend Sam...he's such an ass...hahaha but because of him being an ass I stopped crying...he said you met trash throw it away...and blah blah I dont remember...

Now I feel numb and sick...I wanna leave but my plans are now delayed to saturday...