Doomed and Unrequited

is the name of this blog I've been reading these past 3 hours. It seems really odd to be reading somebody else's blog especially since this is an older person's blog from across the world...Anyway, I saw a link to it from another blog. So, I was like why not. He had a couple of years blogging. I started from the beginning and now I'm in 2005.

He's married with children and in love with a younger woman. His wife knows about it, and I think they may have a troubled marriage. The younger woman, "L" has a BF and isn't really interested in him other than just being his friend - hence the name of the blog "Doomed and Unrequited" The blog has caught my interest because this guy seems to be genuinely in love with the young woman.

And also because he seems as obsessive about L as I am about Juan. At least he gets to see L around the office from time to time and hug her. I love how he cherishes the little times he's kissed her, or how he obsesses over her text messages. If my BB wouldn't have effed up I would probably read his texts all the time, know them by heart even.

Anyway, I haven't obsessed over him much this week. Mainly because I have been busting my ass to probably just failing this damn class anyway. I am so pissed because I had excellent grades. it pisses me offfff ahhh!

On another note, I haven't spoken to Esteban in a week. I am REALLY thinking that he is back with his ex, and he's running from me. He KNOWS that I'm going to give him shit over it because its stupid. The situation is stupid. The other night he called me, and he sounded weird. I asked him if he had been crying and he said no, but I mean c'mon what guy is gonna admit to crying? Then he told me that he had spoken to her. She told him a bunch of stuff, that he was a crappy boyfriend and so on ans so forth. he felt pretty shitty cause in reality I don't think he was. he would drive so far every week to see her. I mean to take that drive for 3 years would stress any one. He worked and went to school fulltime and thats not an easy task.