Thursday, July 22, 2010

Dreaming of you

Since my dad kicked me out and everything, I haven't had time to be pathetic and depressed. IDK maybe its because I can't have my own thoughts here in my gmas house. I just am not able to think. Anyway, I haven't really thought of him in a couple of days which is a lot in CINDY-SPEAK.

I dreamed of him last night. The dream REALLY sucked. well not that much but I guess it was like my inner most feelings.

Dream sequence begins...NOW : I was with Shani and we drive up to his house. His parents open the door and we go in. His mom serves us food, and while we're eating he comes downstairs. I see him and I tell Shani, "He's HERE!" When he passes by I quiet down, and I felt so nervous. I dodge eye contact like I do in real life. He was only wearing black basketball shorts :). But he just passes me by to get a black sweatshirt, and walks back upstairs. He didn't even look towards my direction. In the dream I saw the disappointment in my face. I was crushed.

IDK...sometimes I feel like if he were to see me he wouldn't know who I am. He would pass me up in the street and not say a word to me because I am such a distant memory to him.

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