So I decided to go back with Aaron and now con lo que me sale. ARGGHHH!!! He doesn't even much call me. We got back together on Friday night and then he called me like at 1 pm on Saturday and I didn't really think that he was going to call me that day because it was his little sister's birthday party thing. But then last night he still didn't call me and it was weird cause I really shouldn't care, but I DID care. I kept rolling around in the bed thinking he's with that stupid broad. he's with her! He didn't break up with her! He's such a liar! And those thoughts keep on going round and round in my head. Now what am I going to do?
So JR...I was kinda annoyed that nobody had called me yesterday so I texted JR and I told him that I was going to go to sleep because I was tired of waiting for his call. And then he called like an hour later. See what I mean? I was like really tired but since I was rolling around thinking that Aaron was with Monica, I couldn't go to sleep. And then he apoligized and I felt like a spoiled brat. But c'mon I do have a right to say something...no not really huh? I have or should I say "have" a boyfriend now and I shouldn't be able to complain cause JR isn't my boyfriend. I feel so bad cause he REALLY thinks that he has a chance with me and he's a cutie, but that doesn't really matter. What matters is how attracted I am to his personality. And I know I should be attracted to him because he's such a sweet heart and I don't need to ask for more. But I'm NOT not into him. He calls me baby and sweetie and sweetheart and sunshine (I like that one). Goodness...I'm just not cut out for having a man. But if I don't I'll feel lonely. I don't want to hurt him.
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