I can't believe He called me that. I bet it was stupid girl that I'm not going to mention idea to call me like that...She's making her life bitter over that. I really don't care and obviously she hasnt looked in the mirror. Hahaha. I think she added "who's the biggest cow" question to her slam book to feel better about herself. but anyway She ain't really in my everyday thoughts she's not very important I just thought to add this to my blog since I forget a lot of things. It's just really amazing how he goes with it...when she ain't going to give him the time of day. That aint my deal. So I don't really care.
So I spent like an hour trying to pay for this stupid book and for them to find my cal book. Mr. Morris is so sweet he's nice... too bad I don't work in that office. He went through a big stack of cal books and made small talk with me. Man...I paid 41.95 for this English book that I only used for like less than 20 times. thats sad. That was supposed to be my refill money. damn it oh well. So now i owe Shani like 21 bucks. Ehhh... I have 4 more years to pay her back.
So I'm jealous of my mom. She has a brand new Toyota Corolla. Man...she deserves it though. Her camry was just not cutting it anymore. Maybe I can ask her to borrow it to take it to school tomorrow. God I just like to show off hahaha. Anyway...I just took a nap... I fell asleep without knowing. I guess I was tired from last night. I went to sleep like at around 2 for no reason at all.
Aaron is bothering me again. I want to say fuck off...but I want to hold on still for some reason. he keeps on telling me that he loves me and that he wants to marry me...I just want him so that I can show off...again. He's a good looking guy, very athletic. pretty skin color...pretty smile...nice face. Ok maybe to conceive a couple of kids hahaha he's good at that too. Just his attitude is so...so draining. He needs to leave me alone.
Esteban called yesterday, but i think I hung up on him. Its cause sometimes he mumbles and its kike huh? i thought he had said bye. but who knows what he said. ever since we werent together he's like talking to me just fine and then next thing I know he's like uhhh I'll talk to you later. I dont want him calling just to be polite. Its impossible for him to feel what he used to feel. and I've always just acted like a friend well...after the whole fiasco that is. I dont want to show him my true feelings anymore. Since He got together with Arlette, the slut back whore that hit him and quit him, I havent been the same with him. He even said it, "Why are you so different with me? Why aren't you being Cindy?" The answer was obvious, I stopped acting like the Cindy that was in love with him and went to the Cindy that was his good friend. What was I supposed to do? I was tired of practically begging him to be with me again. I miss that...I wish it was last year all over again knowing the things I know now. Things would be so different now.
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