Missing it all

No matter how long or how hard I try to stop feeling all this for him I can't. I want to be with him I wnt to love him and be with him and everything good. I miss him so much. i feel as if I cant live without Esteban. He calld me again today. It was just like a 20 minute convesations. I couldn't imagine how much I missed his laugh. I could cry of happiness and sadness at the same time. I miss him still i miss our 3 hour conversations. I miss him wanting to be with me those first months the excitement the EVERYTHING. I want to be with him. I want to be near him i want to feel his warmth. his touch, see his face. I want to be near him.