Army departure

Aaron....woke me up last night at 11 (I found the sleeping pills). He called me to tell me, "You're talking to a US soldier" ha... and then he said "I'm calling you to tell you that I'm leaving on the 19th" And he says it like nothing. Like if I'm not supposed to react to it. and I was like, "And what is this is supposed to do to me?" and he said, "I just wanted you to be proud of me" and I'm such a fuckin bitch...I didnt say anything. And I KNOW that that hurt him. I was half asleep and cranky. I was going in and out of sleep. and the conversation was 7 minutes, but it felt like one. I'm so stupid! He kept saying I just wanted you to be proud of me and I guess I got annoyed. I was hidding what I was really feeling. I wanted him to tell me that he loved me. And that everything was going to go back to normal and since he didnt give me that and he was going to let me go...I wanted to be the one that...hangs up first. I wanted to have that control. I know it sounds stupid, but our whole relationship doesnt make sense. SO I just said whatever, and hung up. I cried, but the drugs...they took over me and before I knew it I was asleep.