and i dunno why I'm still there

Now he claims that he's busy. Whoa! I know he has those tests to take and junk. I just hate that everytime his cousin calls he drops everything even me. His damn hoodrat cousin I strongly dislike his cholo wannabe ass. he probably doesnt like me either but i'm not scared of him like he thinks I am. Just cause he gots a weapon on him...shit its probably stolen. And both of them are a "team" and have to do different kinds of "jobs" then Aaron whindes (sp check) up getting hurt everytime. he doesnt take care of my babe. I'm just really upset with Aaron right now. I was supposed to see him tonight (i was gonna go out with vanessa but then she cancelled and i wasnt going to tell mom that she did so that i could see him) he was like, "you think I'm always going to have time for you?" then he started blaberring about shit and i was like, "Well I didnt know you wouldnt have time for me" and then he was like, "Oh stop trying to make yourself the victim" and well you all probably already know that when my feelings get hurt by him i automatically start crying. so i was trying to hold back the tears, but yeah i didnt make a sound though. i hate that he makes me weak. and then he said, "I treat you like I treat everybody else" and i was like "Since when have i been like everybody else? Why do u talk to me like you're angry or bitter?" and then he said, "Sorry that i was raised in an environment where everybody tells you how it is even if its bitter. I'm not supposed to sugar coat everything for you. I can do it some times but not ALL the fuckin time" yeah I'm stupid huh? i should leave him now and never look back but I cant he has a voodoo hold on me lol I think it can be possible since his aunt is one of those tarot ladies ehhh i dont wanna think about it.