What took him so long

So me and Aaron are back together!!! YEY!! lol first time I've said that..weird, but I DONT CARE!!! I love Aaron and I guess it had to take some times for me to realize things, but I'm afraid that its going to end tomorrow. i sent him something...and i dont think hesgoing to be happy about it...fucked screwd up huh? He'll be receiving it tomorrow...UGH! I'm scared. What if he breaks up with me again. But if this makes us break up he will break up with me for good and for good for good this time, no doubt about it. he asked me to marry him, and I said yes. But he wants to get married NOW! I cant get married right now. He says he's going into the army in 3 weeks. Boot camp that is. I dont know what to do. i CANT marry him right now. And i know he's going to say but if you love me you would marry me and thats true but i want a BIG marriage. WITH ALL THE FUSS. I WONT GET MARRIED LIKE THIS...as in the way i look now. noooo!!! Double chin in every picture we'd look like a 10. gross i'm grossed out by myself ughh