College Sweetheart?

So...after a good weekend at ATX...I had to end it with a loud bang...the ones that shoot you against your heart. I thought things were going wonderfully with Aaron...better than great you know? But he broke up with me on Sunday morning (like 3 or 4). I felt like I couldnt say anything cause I was with Leo, Mayra n Shani...it would have been weird. I dunno. I only enjoy crying by myself. Not that I enjoy crying but you get what I'm saying.

Sunday I continued talking to this guy I met. He lives a couple of buildings down...and I guess I just jumped right into this one too. We're together. Hey! at least I'm not cheating on anyone! He's awesome I like him a lot...We have this huge chemistry...we just click I guess...Ms. Johnson might be right...you meet your mate in college lol I'm being exaggerated. I'll write about him later...

I'm kinda worried about driving back home this weekend...well today I should say. I put my shit in the car this morning...and I drove around to the guy's dorm...it made a NASTY sound. The engine light turned on and the D keeps on blinkin...I'm gonna die out there! lol. After about 10 minutes of it being on the engine light turned off...it sounded a lil better, but the engine lite kept on blinking. Stupid shit lol. I just need a new car I'm afraid.

I could have been in music class today, but for some reason i just wanted to stay here and be awake lol. I could have easily taken a nap...but I didnt. I feel sorta indifferent this morning. I have so much planned for this weekend...i cant miss a thing for real. Plus I need to study for my music make up test...great!

1 is the loneliest number

Yesterday I broke up with Jay..for good, for good this time. I feel accomplished lol...thats mean huh? But Man...Jay was going psycho on my ass and that was a little scary. Everybody was telling me that he was a little leach that was going to end up sucking the life outta me. Stressing me out when he wasnt worth a cent. I guess I succeeded since...he didnt call or text me today. I hope to keep it that way.

I havent had a good conversation with Aaron in days...and its really bugging me. I hate it...cause I cant have a good nite's sleep that way. Its so weird...ever since we've cut down on our talking time...I cant sleep well...I got to bed and then dont fall asleep until like 2-3 hours later. I hate it!!!
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Tomorrow's plans go as follows:
7 turn over in bed
710 get out of bed
745 go to class
8 Music class begins
930 POL class begins
11 Lit Class starts
1215...head back to dorm
1230 Drive to Aunt's house
1 have lunch...
430 head back over to my dorm
5 have vday dinner at Wendy's lol (its a joke!)
7 study it up with Andee for our History test...yay...

Not much excitement. I'm SOOOO not prepared for this test. I'm detesting the reading and I keep on putting off. The lecture I know it like 85%. lol great number huh?

The Exorsist

SO Saturday night Mayra, Shani and I went to a party down the street and I got fuckin wasted. I mean it was like new years wasted. After a while we came back to the dorm and then my room mate's friends were here. So Long story short I made an ass of myself. And some guy called me a bitch. I threw up like the exorsist. I called Aaron to tell him that I loved him. I called Mario to tell him that I loved Aaron. ha ha.

I called Aaron the next day when i heard the story. He didnt call me back until 8 at night and he was being sooooo nice to me. And I was soooo happy. He was just being so fuckin sweet. and I told him all about the story you know? Well He has the right to know. The conversation was soooo nice. We even planned out how our future is going to go. We're getting married in June...but i'm not moving to Germany cause I gotta finish school, but I'm going to visit every so often.

Today...he was the same as the night before. He even called me when he was at lunch. He was being really sweet and goofy...I love him when he's that way. But then...like he was telling me that I probably cheated on him with Art (yeah right as if a hot guy like him would be interested in me). And how was I so sure that I hadn't fucked him. And that why would any guy give a girl a beer if he didnt want something out of it. And that why did I call him at 3 o clock in the morning to tell him that I loved him. As if I was guilty and trying to make up for it. And that I couldn't give him one thing that could clear my name because I was wasted and because I blacked out.

He kept on telling me how much I fucked up. And I felt like crap. I stayed quiet...and he ended up falling asleep. I started crying a little too late cause he was already asleep (hes been going to sleep on the phone with me lately, but I always find it troublesome to fall asleep). I hung up and now I'm here...

Dancing in my UNDERPANTS!

I'm in a state of complete and utter...hapiness...lol. everytime I think about Aaron...its like wow...I really love him. I even dance around in my dorm room...to any type of music hahaha. lol fuck...There must really be something wrong with me if I'm THIS happy...when I don't have him with me...Why must he be so far away? That's what I get for being a supportive girlfriend, and letting him join the army. Ehh...in the end it will be good for both of us. I'm still not sure if I'll get to finish school...or if I'll even go next semester. Most likely I will...I think. I dunno.

So...I'm hella SORE...damn that abs class!!! lol I'm scared to go again but i know I have to do it. Aaron is trying to gain weight, but he lost. I'm trying to loose weight, but I'm not loosing or gaining...blah! I've lost more weight...starving myself like that week when Aaron left. Well...I didnt starve myself...lol thats imposible! I just didnt have an appetite. This is making me mad! I'm busting my ass literally and I'm getting no damn results! I wanna quit...but it gives me something to do...so whatever.

My mom eventually did decide to come over here...So thats cool.