I am...completly perplexed...lol am i using the right word? Ok I have failed to sound the least bit intelligent. Whatever.
Aaron...I dunno...things just do not fit in my head at this time. I ALWAYS plan ahead...I always want to know about the future, plan it out...brace myself for what is to come. With Aaron, I just do not know. He says he doesnt want to get married until 2009, when i have already graduated college and he is out of the army. but he says he wants to start the family as soon as possible. Now...I CANT have kids before I get married. I wanna have 'em at the right time; it would mean A LOT to me.
I want a ring...i don't care how small it is...I just want one. It would make it...official.
I'm UNSURE where this is going...if its stable enough. i'm living in the moment, and i DO NOT like it one bit. I mean, I don't wanna have like...her we're going to live in this suburb and have this type of dog, i will work here and we will have 3 kids named blah blah...I just wanna know what's in store for us.
I miss him...a LOT. This whole Army thing has been extremely hard on me. The distance is a killer. Spring semester we were pretty frustrated, really frustrated as a matter of fact. A fuckin' phone relationship is GAY! I can't see his smile...I can't feel his warmth...ahhhh!
I want him here...he's sick, and I wanna be able to be there to take care of him...aww he sounds so cute when he's sick hehe.
He's coming home in December. He says he wants to meet my friends. I haven't gotten to show him off to anybody. so I guess that would be a good thing.
