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Lady Gaga

My eyes Burnnn

SO I am here blogging at 4 am when I should either

a. be doing my damn homework or

b. sleeping.

my eyes burn so B should be the logical...blah blah...

Maybe its because of all the Lady Gaga-ness that I put on my face. It was awesome though so I dont care lol. Anyway the real reason I am blogging is because I got Matthew back!!! OMG I am weirdly, and gayly very happy. I am confused and glad...and ahhhh!!! I can't contain my happiness. Ok ok...so here goes the story...

I was talking to Mario on the phone and I'm usually 99% of the time invisible on Yahoo IM. I don't like the stalker-azzi on my back. Anyway, he messages me telling me to check my email. First off I was thinking, "wtf, are you serious, youre messaging me after a month and a half, how dare you?" I say nothing is there and he says to check again. So, I do and the message basically says that his dad - who has cancer, was like in the hospital this whole time and that he nearly died...blah blah he was apologizing. So, of course anyone would put their parent in front of whatever, whoever. I mean we werent in a relationship.

We keep on messaging each other and Its like he never took an absence. What really got me was...

I missed you Cindy

ok

ok

I missed you as well...ugh

It was hard for me too

What was hard for you?

Saying it

lol

lol

you know me so well...

i do.

He's probably the ONLY guy I've been excited about in like this whole year. idk...maybe I need to go back through my blogs but I am pretty sure that he's been the only one thats been able to light my fire. lol. I like him a lot I mean...I was upset when I stopped hearing from him. I freaked out, and to be honest I cried for like 5 minutes. I think that was the last time I have cried but point is that I did. I felt like a failure at life and that I couldnt keep anyone. I was confused as to why he was soooo frustrated with me....or whatever I dont fucking know.

the point is that he's back...and back to his normal self. And he likes MEEEE. Me for me...not because I've been acting like somebody else, or whatever I've just been me. Me, Cindy Saint Mary. and i lovveeee it! AHHHH!!!!

Dallas

Here? lol whoops

300 Sighs

Its October!!!