Food and Coffee

I've been living in Houston for about 15 years of my life, off and on, and I've never TRULY explored the city. That's the EXACT reason why I'm so bored with this. So, I have challenged myself to visit one restaurant or coffee shop a week. I'm tired of the same old...same old chain restaurant. How about spicing shit up with hidden gems? Yes!

This is my list...12 weeks ahhh!


http://www.kennyandziggys.com/

http://www.littlebittyburgerbarn.com/ Thursday, Sept. 2nd w/ Rob and Mayra

http://www.melscountrycafe.com/

http://www.tbonetoms.com/

http://www.bobstacos.com

http://www.redlionhouston.com/

http://cafepita.weebly.com/

http://melangecreperie.wordpress.com/ Friday Sept 3rd with Shani and Mayra

Lankford Grocery & Market


Coffee too

http://www.empirecafe.com/

www.TINYBOXWOODS.COM

http://www.javacoffee.com/

http://www.inversioncoffee.com/

Obnoxious with Pink Lipstick

I felt super girly today with pearls and flowers :)

It takes forever and a day for the makeup I'm wearing to translate into a picture sometimes...ghey.

This one is from Lauren aka thequeenofblending. I LAVVVV her. She cracks me up all the time. Look at me talking about her like I know her. but yeah, She's so down to earth and actually responds to tweets like a normal person :)

AHhh!!!

Stupid poses lol. I used all the eyeshadows she used because I actually had them. I never use my Ammo pallet from Urban Decay and now I have a use for it :)

Blush : Sweet Cheeks from Milani  Lips : MAC Snob <3 Eyebrows : MAC Brun e/s

Nothing really to post

My aunt Marina had her surgery yesterday. So, that means she hasn't bothered me for the past day. She has to wear these ridiculous goggles that are funny to look at. I slept from like 7 pm to 830 am in the morning. I think its a good idea to sleep this much for a school day because I have to remain focused. Last semester I would half way pay attention because I was so sleepy.

BUTTTT before I fell asleep last night I did do some hauling.

I REALLY wanted these boots so I bought a few other things to along with it.

I had this skirt in my wish list ever since I saw it and I never ordered it because I always find it really retarded to pay an insane amount of many on something my grandma could possibly make. I also bought some pink sunglasses that I will probably show on me instead of a picture. And a pair of linen pants that I plan on wearing to work so they're not really important.

I picked this bag up as well because I needed a new school/laptop bag. I hope it works out because my zebra bag is broken *sad face*

Anyway...

Life if pretty boring still except that  my week went by so fast. Maybe it was because I don't have to frikkin' work a full work week. I love my J-O-B but sometimes all the drama just makes it so hard to function.

I overdrafted because I placed in a bill to pay yesterday. The bills usually just go through on Friday, but for some reason this one wanted the money NAO. I screwed myself over and I had to go half way around the world to find a effin' ATM. And then  since I took a dif route to school there was construction on I-10 that made me have to take the  longest detour. which helped out in the end because I ended up exiting the normal exit that ends up at my bank :)

In other news I already found a douchebag thats in two of my classes...annoyed/bothered

The Deli at Fiesta

I spent 40 dollars in Fiesta. lol.

English Chocolate that I love from Cadbury I think?
Mozzarella
Proscuitto 1/2 lb
Peppered Turkey 1lb
Muenster Cheese 1lb
Hummus the garlic-y kind <3
Potato bread - havent had this in YEARS
Starbucks coffee for tomorrow's early morning
Nuts - almond and walnuts
Fresh Rosemary
Hot Cheetos
Soy milk - mom hadn't restocked
and some other bullshit that I don't remember

All because...

1. I wanted to be fancy and have deli sliced turkey and cheese. 
2. I wanted to try the mozzarella and proscuitto from this post on SCCastaneda's blog...though I did forget the ciabatta!!! AHHH!!! (not to mention that having prosciutto always makes me feel fancy)
3. One of our kids' mom makes these awesome nuts for him as a reinforcer...taste soo good

 I had the fancy deli sandwich today, and tomorrow I will try Sonia's ciabatta sandwich :)

My aunt is visiting...ugh...I mean yay!

I never quite understood why people on TV would say that they would stress out over a relative coming to visit, but yeah, its true. My tia Marina is here with my cousin's daughter Nathalie..or is it Nataly? whatever.

She was at the doctor's office with my mother when I got home yesterday. There was an Herbalife brochure on the kitchen table, and I thought to myself, "She's gonna try to sell me of of that bullshit I ALREADY know!" When I was in VA last year she kept on saying that I should lose weight and what not, and that I would look much prettier with less weight on. It really annoyed me. Fat people already know that theyre fat. Its like beating a dead horse.

Now, she's selling Herbalife...like what hispanic person isn't selling that bullshit? She got home and she half way hugged me as to make it a point that she couldn't hug me all the way...which is complete bullshit cause everyone can...unless I have friends with very long arms. She offered me some fruit, and got annoyed by me cause I had never tasted a cherry before, of course the type that doesn't come in an alcoholic drink. I was feeling pretty shitty and I did not want to eat regardless.

I went to sleep like at 930 that night. She probably thought I was being rude but I was just feeling so gross that even the light hurt my eyes. When I woke up in the morning she hadn't come out of her room. As I flat ironed my hair, Nataly came out and said she needed to use the potty. I directed her to the other room and continued to flat iron my hair. My aunt went in to take a shower, and she ended up not knowing how to use the shower part of the shower, but didn't ask me.

I was on my way out and I try to find my keys inside my huge bag so I took out my lunch. She says, "Thats ALL the food you're taking?!" It was an apple, a flat ass sandwich made of my mom's thin diet bread and a slice of ham(cause there was no cheese or lettuce), and a handful of cashews. I didn't think it was a big meal at all. So, it made me really pissed off. I wanted to punch her in the face.

She hasn't had the opportunity to push her stupid Herbalife products to me, but I will say NO with a straight face because when you say no with a smile that may lead people to believe that you can be convinced. fuckkk no.

Anyway, I've been on campus waiting for my class to start for the past two hours...it starts in 1. I've read the first chapter of my India book. Blahhhhh. She's not gonna be at my house tonight so I can relax and be the fat ass that I am.

Shopping for Shani's Wedding dress

There are 10 months until Shani's wedding. Theyre gonna pass by SOOOO fast. We all need to get on the diet train...lol

BB Malfunction

I had the black one he had the gold one.

My BB started to act all crazy like a yr after I got it. It would all of the sudden freeze and delete EVERYTHING. All of my recent activity as well as all of my text messages. It pissed me the hell off but I really didn't care too much since my texts weren't that important to me at the time.

The phone was working fine the whole time we were together. I never deleted on text from him. We broke up and two days later it glitched on me. All of my texts got erased. I remember it too. I was in the car driving from work saying, "no...no...this didn't just happen. No No NOOO!!!!"

I cried my eyes out. Everything was gone, EVERYTHING. All the I love yous, the I miss yous, the you're so amazings, the you're the best thing that ever happened to mes...well all the supposed "faggetry"

it was terrible. It was a fuck you to the face. To this day I wish I had them to see them to remember that it was real...and not some fucking fantasy land bullshit that I came up.

The memories are slipping away, and I'm trying so hard to keep him alive in my memory.

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That damn dream

I keep thinking about it and in turn I keep on thinking about Steven. It annoys the hell outta me, but I can't stop. I liked how I felt in the dream, and it been the closest to anything in a couple of months.

I also feel sort of guilty that the guy in my dream was a different version of Steven and not somebody else. It makes me angry...idk. Like if my dreams have been violated by unwanted thoughts?

why steven? why dream about him? I rarely even think of him. Why feel that way? I'm so annoyed! I don't give two shits about him in the romantic sense of things.

Its not me. It will never be me again.

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Shopping

There were some interesting conversations at work. Somebody might be leaving, and I hope...it happens. I think things will go smoother for me. but you know, sometimes people like to fantasize about things that never end up happening...for example : me moving out/getting a new car.

The power went out at work today, all the kiddos got to leave by 2. I went to the Redbox and rented two movies. Then I did some online "window shopping" and I decided that I NEED these heals

To go with my ASOS dress for Mario's birthday dinner. They're only 15 bucks too from Forever21.

Later I did some actual shopping. I stopped by my bro's middle school and bought school supplies, and then with my BestBuy rewards in hand I FINALLY bought an aux cable for my ipod. The sneaky product placement tricked me into buying Dexter Season 3 for 20 bucks which is a steal considering it costs 40 on the regular.

We then went to the mall. My bro needed some school uniform shirts, and he specifically said he wanted them from Express. So they were on special buy one get one 50% off. We had a coupon : 30 off of 75. We needed to spend 23 more bucks so I snagged a shirt for my momma. She's always in need of clothing. In total it was 52 bucks for 3 shirts which is quite impressive for Express. I went into forever 21 and found nothing that REALLY appealed to me. I sorta liked this one dress, but when I moved to a dif part of the store I noticed that it was partially see-thru...and thats a NO NO! I left it on the rack and went about my business.

We then got to Macys and looked at the bedding - since my aunt is coming from DC, my mom wants to prep my bro's room for her stay with new sheets. My poor bro hasn't gotten new sheets since he still liked Spongebob. After that we waited for mom, but she taked forever and a day so we waited outside in the hallway on a bench.

I got bored so I decided to go in a pop into LB. There was a 9.99 sale. Everything is soooo old ladyish there with like one or two pieces that are hip. I found an off the shoulder top, and cool looking tunic. SCORE! I now have an outfit for Saturday :)

My mom arrived and we bought Ruby a Cinderella Halloween costume from the Disney store, and Josue some Black Vans from Journeys Kids. My mom was unusually hyper, which was quite hillarious. She took us to Chick Fil A, and that was our shopping afternoon/evening.

I think my blog's been flooded with too much negativity, and it needed to lighted up with some boring recollection of my days lol

Sailor Moon from Vintage or Tacky

I've decided to keep track of my favorite eye looks to NEVER forget!!!

This is just too hawt for words from the wonderful Vintage or Tacky (Cora).

I did some tweeking cause of course I did not have ALL the products, though I did order 

Grape pigment and Pink Opal for it

Products Used:

Face

Revlon Photo Ready in #6

Mac NW25 Studio blend concealer

Mac Blush in Blunt to contour

Wet n Wild Blush in Heather Silk

Too Faced Pink Leopard to highlight

Lips : MAC Rose Romance LE Lipstick

Eyes:

MAC Post Haste

Coastal Scents 88 Matte Palette - First Hot Pink

MAC Vibrant Grape

Coastal Scents 88 Matte Palette - Bright Blue

MAC Grape Pigment & Fix +

MAC Beautiful Iris

MAC Vellum as a highlight

MAC Pink Opal as an inner corner highlight

MAC Feline to line

You can't control your dreams

I slept a VERY long time yesterday...From 6 pm to almost 8 am...yeah. lol.

I woke up a couple of times and when I wake up is when I dream (or I guess I remember my dreams). I was in Louisiana this time. We were staying at one of those shady hotels, and Mayra had left me there while she went with some shady guy. So, I went to the french quarter to explore. I went on one of the Mule tours and got lost. The mule driver looked like this :

 Of course he looked like an ACTUAL person, and not a politically incorrect cartoon, but he just reminded me of this BS, and he spoke like a person from Roots. IDK...where that eff that came from...

but moving on...I was the only person on the carriage. He stopped, and this guy that looked like a rocker version of Steven with black hair, those black studded belts, piercings and tattoos was there. I said I was lost, and they both say, "You're lost??" and said, "Yes, and I can't hear. My speakers (from my computer) are missing" So, the driver tells me that the rocker dude would take me. So, we get into this red car and drive away. We drive like super far, and I get a little worried. I ask him where he's taking me and he says to Best Buy.

I'm being really awkward with him like I am with most people and he keeps talking to me. And he asks me why I'm not looking at him, and I just shrug. Deja vu anyone? I can feel it in my dream that I really like this dude...and I get even more weird - like all shy and quiet. I get the overwhelming feeling that I want to hold his hand...ugh. We finally get there and he goes straight in. He's tall so he looks up through the sections to find the auto section. I try to tell him that I don't need car speakers but computer ones but he ignores me. He tells me, "these are the best ones in existence!" which I find highly unlikely if we're in Best Buy. And he gives me a two point list as to why they were good. He also had these Steven mannerisms which unsettled me even more when I woke up.

They were 1000 dollars. Rocker dude ends up saying, "fuck it! I'm buying them for you!" And he throws down Canadian money to buy it. He ends up buying them and by that point I'm like fuck it...I don't wanna make this dude feel bad by not taking these stupid speakers. The rest was all bullshit...that I don't even remember.

When I woke up I felt euphoria, and disgust at the same fucking time lol.

Euphoria : Feeling those crushing feelings again. Awwww crushes :) Theyre so amazing and you have like a smile from ear to ear.

Disgust : It was Steven in costume to put it clearly.

lol.

ASOS

 I've been reading a lot of plus size fashion blogs lately since LALanguage on YouTube introduced them to me. One blog leads to another blog and now I have like 30 blogs bookmarked! Anyway, when they post OOTD they often have links to the pieces. Or sometimes they post like sales or shit they've seen.  This UK shop ASOS kept showing up. I checked them out a couple of days ago, and I REALLY liked the clothes. The prices weren't off the wall crazy like some other linked clothing. I couldn't really convince myself to order though. I thought, "Uhh...this is from the UK. The dollar is worth NOTHING there! and what about the shipping? probably through the freaking roof!"

But today, as I was reading another Blog it linked me to the clearance section lol...uhhh yeah why didn't I check THAT out before? I saw a couple of pieces that we too cute like this one dress - cost me a whopping 13 bucks. yeah what a steal! So, I picked out 5 things. It came out to be 58USD but then I saw that the last shirt which was cute...was "too much" since I'm such a penny pincher I took it out and my cart was 40USD. I then went on to find a free shipping code, and that was that. I ordered.

I plan to wear this to @mar10man's  24th birthday party at the grove. We decided to "step up" our classyness. I think that this dress is sophisticated and chic. :)

Hurt like that

My Go-To Smokey Eye

I always say black and brown make a frown but I wear this whenever I get the chance to its like soooo beautiful. My favorite eye look hands down.

Picture beside me

The past few night I've been sleeping with a picture of him beside me. I stare at it for a good while before I actually fall asleep. I want to feel as if I saw him a couple of days ago.

I don't want to forget his face...like I forgot his voice. That's so devastating to me. I don't remember his voice at ALL.

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I'm unselfishly sad

I received a call a couple of hours ago. it was Esteban and he was distraught. he always starts his stories with, "you know that one thing I told you about?" this one thing was that his cousin had passed away and that he carried her casket. Well, this other thing was that his uncle passed away a couple of days ago. and he kept on saying, "why did this have to happen to us?"

idk...I didn't know what to say. I just wanted to hold him in my arms and tell him that its all gonna pass. I feel so sad for him...I've never really seen him this way.

I love Esteban, and I really hate that he's going through this.

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My Purple hair

I dyed my hair purple a couple of months ago...

Three years ago, I told him I was gonna dye my hair purple, and he started to suggest other colors to ago along with it. And I said, "I'll add pink just for you" He responded, "I feel special that a girl is gonna look like a skittle for me"

I laughed so hard.

I keep on reading...and we talked about wearing a man thong that he washed his car in with sponges attached to it.

I laughed even harder.

IDK man...he's so irreplaceable that I cannot fathom the idea that there could be somebody better. Nobody has made me laugh harder, care about him more, more comfortable to be MYSELF, and not try to impress him.

I want to open up my heart to somebody new because I know that we're not going to be together again, but I find it so difficult. Then again, lately I've found it difficult to live a lonely life as well. I don't speak to anybody other than the people at work, my bro and my mom. Esteban is having his own struggles to deal with...which are much bigger than mine.

Its really difficult for me to admit it, but I think I'm depressed. I know I always say that I'm upset about the Juan situation, but that's just a part of me. For the most part, I'm pretty mellowed out. I'm not the most chipper person on the planet, but I don't go around moping around, or crying constantly. I have a "whatever" kind of attitude. Lately, I've been feeling like I've been crushed down to the ground, and that I'm being ignored - that nobody cares about me or what I have to say.

I'm just going crazy with my own thoughts.

Mirror Mirror on the wall

I was reading this one article on how the mall tricks you into buying things. It said that they place several mirrors to make you look at yourself. I ALWAYS look at myself in those mirror. Sometimes I say oh I look good, but MOST of the time I'm like, "Girl...WTF are you wearing?!?" So, yeah they get me! Way to kill my self esteem! lol. But most of the time I know what I'm getting, or I have specific stores in mind to visit. I'm not much of a window shopper because most stores can't cater to me.

Anyway, I've been doing a lot of shopping lately, but not enough wearing. i have about 4 shirts that I have not worn, a skirt, a pair of sandals, jeans, jewelry, and a pair of leggings.

I always feel like I need new clothes. I get bored with my current wardrobe constantly. Once I get photographed in it I think its done for. If I wear a slightly old piece again...I see myself in a random mirror and regret it lol.

Sometimes I think that shopping has just become an addiction for me cause I always want to buy things...ALWAYS.

It's hard out there...?

Shit's getting Annoying

Ever so often, Jonathan tries to be my boyfriend again. He does it like 3 times a year, and no thats not what's annoying. He texts me EVERYDAY with "hey" and "How are you feeling" ughhhh annoying when you respond and then nothing. EXTREMELY annoying. So I went off on him the other day. I was ANGRYYYYY like no other. and he was like, "But I care about you" BOOOO.

In other news, Esteban has been off the radar for the past couple of weeks. At first I thought that he was dating somebody. And I got overprotective, and Angry as well lol. I was like how dare this new bitch take MY friend away?!? He's MINE! lmao. I'm retarded.

but actually he's like going through some family things...idk what.

Boooo!

I'm so sick of myself. I can't seem to be productive in any way. I'm feeling like the biggest loser on the planet. I don't even feel like finishing school right now. I'm burned out on life.

In 3 weeks, everybody that I get along with at work is leaving. I don't even want to stay there anymore. The job is stressful. Plain and simple. I seriously don't know what to do. I can't stop working because I will soon have a car to pay for, and I have to save up for India, and after that I have Shani's wedding thing. I'm just so...not into anything. I want to run the fuck away. I feel so ARGHHH!!!

I need to get away. I need to have a clear mind.